Insomniac's Silent Black Buzz

Ten to five in the afternoon

Everything happens too soon

Hot breath on my neck

I hear it, immense 

The only one who knows what happens next 

Shit stained glass jar

Can you hear where we are 

Alone in a silence no one wants to hear 

I may not be alone

But can't really know, all that's awake is my fear

Don't take the last of what I have to give 

Marching in the black dusty dream that I live 

Quiet that child, its not me, not mine

Who am I

When every blink could be the last time

Rise From My Knees

Seven years ago today this girl walked into the room and I discovered that love at first sight was a real thing. That love has grown every day since. That moment changed my life, my perspective, my beliefs.

This blog doesn't see the creative work I do daily anymore. Not because I don't do it, but because my priority is simply doing the work. I like it more as a place to post poetry of mine that won't see the light of day any other way. 

But that doesn't mean I'm not writing, or that I feel any less inspired....or any less in love. 

Here's an example...



Rise From My Knees


Many things I'd dreamed 

But could never believe

And more I'd wished for

But never received 

I was taught I just need

More time on my knees

Many things I did see

In moments between 

Real smiles and dark skies

Campfires and high seas

I watched the dirt bleed

From time on my knees

The clouds would recede 

I scattered my seeds

Sometimes I'd recline 

And try to believe

I watched as the weeds

Grew high 'round my knees

I saw bitterness breed

As hope fled the scene 

So blinded by cries

I'd hide behind trees

And question that creed

Of more time on my knees 

I tried to break free

I searched for the key

I fought all the pitchforks 

Ignored were my pleas

No day left to seize

I fell to my knees

Then one night I see

Your eyes through the heat

You fly me up high

And we cry on your seat

A truth on the breeze

Sees me rise from my knees

Now time doesn't squeeze

The life from our dreams

Or tie up our insides

With lies and deceit

We have all we need

And now we believe 

This love never dies

Despite fires or seas

No trials come between

Our cuddling regime 

Our time spent aligning

Our eyes and our feet

Our hearts and their beats

Our birds and our bees

We'll fly beyond time

Not die on our knees

Why Is I Two

I'll never feel about me the way I feel about you
You

You are the open wilds, I am the zoo

I'll never feel about me the way I feel about you

You

You feed the river while weeds choke my groove

I'll never feel about me the way I feel about you

You - you, you you

The ache we feel, I created

The waking fear you faced, I debated

The waiting here that I did, you repainted

This hating jealousy will see it's goodbye

When I take the steps to stand up in the open sky

I'll never feel about me the way I feel about you

You

You are the talented, I am the nube 

I'll never feel about me the way I feel about you

You

You wear the V t-shirt, I wear the cube

I am not the clothes I wear

I am not what others think I am

I am not a cold lost soul, impaired

I am not what I hope or the dope might claim

But the thing I dig for I may not find, am I blind

Inside

I'll never feel about me the way I feel about you

You

You speak the words I think and feel, like they're new

I'll never feel about me the way I feel about you

You

You sail the sea where reality is true

I'll never feel about me the way I feel about you

You

What you could believe I put behind an excuse

Just coz a door is open doesn't mean

That it's easy to walk through 

You sing all the things that I lust, I just have you

You - you, you you

I don't know where I'm going but I gotta move on

On

Onto the open sky, where I is not two

We Live For Love, Then Die

My love is the sun

The reason, the one

The beat that feeds my upper

The seat that calms my gun

My love is the dark

The season, the mark

The heat that bleeds my sucker

The feet that kick my heart

My love is the haze

The blindness, the rage

Defeat complete and utter

The bleakness of the page

My love is the hand

The kindness, the plan

That kneels between the thunder

And pulls me from the sand

My love is the moon

Dim lit, a tune

Beguiling eyes that hunger

For creatures bred to wound

My love is the sky

Forever to die

Without a doubt I'm under

Expanse that wings can fly

The take, the break

Mortal weight that makes me cry

I've crept, I've slept

Nothing left but more goodbyes

We live for love, then die

Yo-yo. Yo

Yo-yo-ing's a bitch

Almost as annoying as the itch

That spurs the pull back up 

Not known to stop

Moving is the norm

No matter your flat or your form 

Going or coming, never with

Whether tripping, lifting

Ripping a bowl or a spliff

But now it goes high 

A black flash in the sky

Weathered rifle, sticky mud 

Rock n rhythm then the dub 

I'm feeling it flow 

For how long I'll never know

So at least keep watching now

Keep on eating, needing

Beating a pocket, then your frown

My yo-yo goes up and then down

A move I never seem to get down

My yo-yo goes up and then down

But not smooth or spinning 

Near the cradle or ground

Yo-yo, yo-yo

You stole the show

My yo-yo, yo-yo, yo

Yo-yo, yo-yo

At least you go

My yo-yo, yo-yo, yo

Yo

Grrrlistening

Thin

Glistening 

Pigs

On the wing

Don't talk about sin

It's nothing

Din

Listening

Kids

On a swing

Don't talk

I'm talking

Talking

Talking

Talking

Talking

Talking 

Talking

Talking 

Talking

Talking

Thin

King

Constancing

Things

In the gone

Not on the forks

You listening

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Seen

Dunzowing

Lean

But keep going

Don't talk any more 'n

You're listening 

Odelle

Odelle 

I don't know if I want you

But I know I don't want to

I don't want to

A friend of mine

Said a picture never lies

But I'm sure they might

If we try

But I don't buy

Odelle

I don't know if I want you

But I know I don't want to

Just think I've got to

My girl

You're an ice cream swirl

I see the golden curls

I see the vaudeville show

The black weighty throne 

Some other guy you know

Fists, fights, gowns, kites

And I want to prove

I can do right by you

The guy who makes you move

The one most loved by you

But I've seen the signs

Odelle

I don't know if I want you

But I know I don't want to

I don't want to

There's one here before you